One of Those Days

It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses.~Sidonie Gabrielle Colette

I'm having a day like this . This time three years ago was the last time i seen my Son and Mother alive. You would think it gets easier but i feel it is getting harder, i seem to miss them more every day. A few nights ago i woke up and got a whiff of cigarette smoke (nobody here smokes) My first thought was that one of them came to say hi. I probably imagined it but who realy knows, it is something nice to hang on to.

On a brighter note i found out that if everything goes well there will be another life coming into this world. It is still very early but hope is always there.