"Helix Nebula"

I watched the national geographic channel all weekend, it had great shows on about space.

Do you ever wonder what is out there? are we alone ? is there an afterlife?

I had a dream once that stayed with me to this day. I watched a bright light coming toward earth and next thing earth was gone, it was like a huge explosion but i didn't feel panic or fear. Next thing i know i was floating in space , not in a human form but like a speck of dust and then i had this sense of loneliness and melancholy come over me , i was totally alone and then i woke up.

The feeling stayed with me for quite a bit after i woke up, it was such a vivid dream.

I wonder where and how my Son, my Mother ,Grandmother and some other people i love are.

I want so badly to see them again , even if it is just for a moment.

I wish i knew and had some sort of believe system that would help me through this and give me some comfort, but i flounder and wonder and hurt.

Well i put some Tea on and hope as the day goes on i will snap out of this mood